Shibari as a Personal Prowess

I wanted to be the only one. I know it doesn’t sound good. I know many people will say that such an attitude is possessive, unhealthy, and a sign of insecurity. And yet, many of those same people would also want to be the only one. Because, when you’re in love, in love like you’ve never been before, you really would like to be the only one, not just in the present, but also in the past. I didin’t know I was going to try Shibari as a personal prowess.

I wanted to be the only one for him. Maybe it’s because I have some insecurities about myself. You see, I’m a strong woman, and I’ve been called a “tomboy” more than once. Me and my boyfriend talked openly about our previous partners, and there was this one girl, so delicate and pretty that she drove me nuts! I came up with a nickname for her, the “doll”, and I hated her more than anything else in the world.

I know, I know, I must sound like the most toxic woman you’ve ever listened to, but, believe me, I’m not. It’s just that this woman seemed like my perfect opposite. She had been something for my boyfriend that I know I could never be. And that made me jealous.

My plan

That’s when I came up with the idea of doing some sort of feat. Something no woman had ever done before with him. And when I learned about Shibari, I knew that was exactly what I was looking for. I could use all my strength and turn it into something beautiful, something a “doll” would never be able to do.

First, I took a workshop, and then another. I wanted to be sure that I could provide an unforgettable experience for my boyfriend. Then, when the time came, I told him I wanted to give him a surprise. It was wonderful, and I could see in his eyes that this was something new and exciting. A realm of sensuality and pleasure he had never stepped into, and that, from now on, would be our secret getaway.

And that’s how I got into Shibari as a personal prowess.

This is my Shibari story.