Shibari and Expectations

A Shibari scene lasts for a couple of hours, but, for me, the excitement and the fun last all day. You see, when my boyfriend and I are going to go to the studio to do a scene, he begins the day by putting a special choker on my neck. Only he and I know the meaning of it. It means that tonight we’re going to do a scene together. Now, it sounds simple; perhaps even a little bit silly. But the mere thought that I’m carrying it gets me excited. It’s like telling my coworkers, the friends I have lunch with, and even the strangers that I pass in the street, that tonight I’m going to do something really sexy and kinky, but without using words. It’s one of my favorite games. I think a lot about Shibari and expectations.

Of course, it happens that sometimes a friend or a colleague asks me about the choker. That makes it even more fun! I answer vaguely, choosing each word carefully. I want to say things in a way that a smart person would know that I’m into something dirty and kinky, but that people who are not very smart or don’t pay enough attention never guess what I’m up to. It’s like playing charades for grown-ups. It makes me laugh, it makes me feel good about myself, and, sometimes, it even makes me wet.

When the time finally comes to leave the office I have such an intense feeling of anticipation that I can barely breathe. It’s as if I could already feel all those ropes around my body causing a delicious friction in some of the favorite places of my body and making me discover some new spots of pleasure.

I sometimes think that one of the best parts of Shibari happens before the actual Shibari. It’s the expectation. Shibari and expectations go together.

This is my Shibari story.