Before the Storm

When we got married, twenty-five years ago, my husband’s father told us that a marriage was like a boat crossing the ocean: you are certain to find calm seas, but also to face storms ahead of you. This was the worst storm we were yet to face. I mean, the risk was high, we had to spend a lot of money, and it would all be stressful to the breaking point. That’s why I asked my husband for a very special gift before the storm.

Keep in mind that we’re not a couple of seniors. We’re barely reaching fifty. And we got married in 1998. So, please don’t imagine us watching news about the Korean War on a black-and-white TV. I tell you this because I want you to understand that it’s not unusual that we’re both kinky. We’ve practiced bondage for many years, and it has always been good for our marriage.

So, before going to the hospital and facing the doctors, and the instruments, and the danger, I asked my husband to do one more scene together, just in case. It wasn’t easy, of course. While we used to be happy in our previous scenes, this time our mood was heavy, and we couldn’t help it.

For me, one of the most important things about Shibari is that it gives me the message that my body works well. It shows that I’m still capable of many things. And I was afraid to lose all that once the treatment was over.

When we finished the scene, aftercare was just crying on each other’s shoulders. As I said, we all know that we’ll have to face storms sooner or later. However, nobody wants that moment to actually arrive.

The following day, we woke up early and drove to the hospital. I was ready.

This is my Shibari story.