Tying my Other Me

I have to be a shark when I’m in the office. I have to be quick, efficient, and daring. There’s no room for sentimentality or doubt. Things have to be done. And it’s my responsibility. Then again, I’m a woman, and just like any other person, I have feelings, memories, and desires. And I can’t quit to that part of my life. That’s why I learned that, by tying my other me, my business persona, I can regain the balance of my life. And I couldn’t do it without Shibari.

You see, every Friday night I go to a Shibari studio that I rent for the night. I hire a model who somehow resembles me. Then, I dress her with my own clothes, that is, with the business casual outfits I wear for the office. I even put my badge on the blouse she’s wearing. And I tell her about the news of the week about the company’s businesses. (That is, without violating the confidentiality agreement.)

As I tie her, I try to transfer through each rope all the stress and exhaustion that I have accumulated during the week. All the arguments and the problems go to her. And I’m released of that pressure. Step by step, I cease to be the Acquisitions Manager and I simply become Jessy.

Once I have tied her, I spent a few minutes contemplating her. I put in her whatever problems I still have left in me. Then, I dress up for my night. Sometimes, I go out on a date, and I dress as sexy as I could never show myself in the office. Sometimes, it is a night for me, and I put on saggy clothes, which I could never take to the office. By the time I finish, I untie my bottom and, while I do, I tell my other me just how much I appreciate her hard work, thanks to which we can live a happy, pleasurable life. On Monday, I will be her again, but tonight, each of us go separate ways. That’s how tying my other me helps keep my life balanced.

This is my Shibari story.