Shibari to Redeem Myself

I was selfish and mean. I regret it know, but I was blind then. Only later, I realized how much I had hurt her. And I understood why she had left me. I drained her and took everything she had to give. And I didn’t give anything. I was so selfish! However, eventually I found a way to redeem myself. You might not believe it, but I use Shibari to redeem myself.

You see, after she left me, I began fantasizing about bondage. I wanted to learn how to tie the woman I love, so that she would never be able to leave me. I wanted to restrain her and force her to stay with me. However, as soon as I began taking lessons, I realized that was not the real motivation behind bondage, at least not for me.

The fact is that I soon as I started working with a bottom, I understood that what I really wanted was to care for her. I began to pay attention to the way she felt, and to understand what she wanted. Now I find a bigger pleasure in tying my bottom exactly the way she wants than in restraining her so that she will never leave me.

Then I met Donna, and I realized that I could redeem myself from my previous selfishness by tying her. I wanted her to see just how generous and caring I could be. And it worked! Through ropes and knots, I can show her how much I care for her, how I can pay attention to the most subtle of her desires. 

By the time I untie her, she’s attached to me more strongly than if I used the tightest knot. She’s mine beyond any physical bond. And the slow time of the aftercare, when we cuddle, is pure bliss!

This is how I use Shibari to redeem myself.